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i'm sorry but you guys have seriously disappointed me. sandran, i know how you feel. it will be alright soon, give me some time. yes you're right. i will never forget the fun we had together, especially when we even went through thick and thin at maestro and the trainings. but some things i just can't get over easily. yes i know you doubted me, similarly, if i were you, i would have done the same. i'm not mad at you, but what you've done. getting haz involved was like the worst thing that you can do. coz you know, she speaks without using too much of her brain. adding fuel to the fire. i don't blame her for her insensitivity, that's the way she is. but that conference was unneccessary. especially when we're discussing something which i think was insignificant. why blow up such a small matter? i felt disrespected too. i'm also not blaming you for the misunderstanding. if i were you, i would have thought that "renjie is flirting with that girl" too. but what you could have done is to clear things up with me and not getting the rest involved.

i know yanni is trying hard to get things back to what it was. i understand. i need some time.

and haz also made it pretty clear that she hopes that i can make a decision in which cca i want to be at. i understand where she is coming from. as a coach, i would have felt the same too. i would want to see everybody turning up for trainings. yes i know she hopes that at least i can turn up for training when she's around. but there's a coach at cheer too. and the competition is near. if i really had to choose, i will give up touch rugby for now, or permanently.

yes i know touch needs me, the team is incomplete without anyone. as the pioneer batch that founded this cca, we're bonded. we went through thick and thin. but cheer needs me as well. i admit that cheerleading is not where my passion lies. but the reason i'm staying is very simple, to lend a helping hand. i suck at stunts and everything, and i hate the training too, but if that could make fad, shelly and gang happy, i'm more than willing to give my support.

and for some people who thinks that cheerleading is actually a cca for sissys, that just shows your level of intelligence and maturity. no need to elaborate on that.

ya i know that someone has been talking bad about me. somebody that i don't really respect. not because of how he looks like, not because he's from another race, and not because he's fat or he's not good looking. but his level of maturity. i know he must be hating me now. that explains his level of maturity. yes of course i know everyone has the right to like and hate whoever they want, go ahead then. coz, i can hate whoever i want too. and you notice that the word "whoever" is bigger and darker than the rest. oh ya and i saw something really hilarious outside the PE office. the list of all the unfit people in the school. oh yes i saw whoever. it seriously did gave me a good laugh!!! what position is he in to criticise cheerleading? hmm i wonder. so he thinks he is fit? oh please, one look at his body we all know that he's critically obese, how can he handle the trainings? and i understand how he feels too. if i were him, i wouldn't want to join cheer as well. firstly is the misconception of cheerleading as a sissy cca, it's not that "cool" for a guy to be in cheerleading. secondly, he hates me. thirdly, he doesn't have the guts to face me. and then if he were to join, he'll get hell from me. similarly if i were him, i won't join a cca whereby i will be at disadvantage. if he was fitter than me, i wouldn't want to face him and ashame myself by putting myself under his training. that's super humiliating. he needs pride. i admire his pride though. even though he's much more inferior as compared to most people, but the fact that he can still hold his ground and talk proudly, i admire his courage. i admire how he deals with his inferiority complex. seriously if i were him, i wouldn't be that strong. but that doesn't deny the fact that he still has low self esteem. come on, deny for all you want. only you know what you are thinking.

i was neutral towards this boy in the past. but he hated me for some reason, maybe for a girl, i don't know. for a moment i disliked him, but i tried to make peace. but it just seems like he wants to be my enemy. which is something i don't wish to happen. i don't really hate him, not like he's worthy anyway. go on, tell her more bad stuffs about me. go go. let's see if it works.

haha.

she's on my side.

oh yes i love my hylas and pregmalion dearies. you guys are the best tribe. i had so much fun with you all during orientation shouting all the sups and cheers. and i'm really glad to see that even after orientation you guys are still sticking around together athough you are posted to different classes. that i'm proud to say that i've bonded you guys well! glad to be your OGL! our tribe may be small, but we surely do have strong fighting spirit.

work hard for SUPERNOVA!

0742A, good luck for i@fun.

i miss 0642B and our haunted house.

oh yes i'm in rasalas again!

finally, i wish to thank lesley, jolene, ilya, kiat and gang for being such sweet people. especially lesley, for her math, hair and almond jelly. jolene, my fellow cheer mate. ilya, cheer and touch mate. kiat, classmate! you girls are damn cool.

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