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just when i thought things couldn't get any worse.
it did.
i'm really thankful to all the people that have been supportive of me.
this is perhaps the biggest setback in my life.
devastating blows coming towards me, one after another, and it gets harder each time.
i'm suffocating.

i thought that not being able to win the heart of a girl that i really love is perhaps the worst thing that can happen to me.
indeed, i was devastated.
i was true to her, i gave my all to her.
but it's him that she loves.
i can't blame anybody but to accept fate.
accept what fate has planned for me.
hell it is.
fate is really playing with me.
fate is saddist.
i had to give up.
give up on her.
perhaps releasing her would bring her happiness.
i hope it did.
besides, i don't deserve her.
i don't deserve a girl like her.
a good girl that is.
devastating.

and then.
i got retained.
after studying really hard.
this is the first time that i've really put in so much effort and hard work.
and i still can't make the mark.
i have no one to blame.
other than my stupidity perhaps.
my whole class managed to promote.
except me.
me alone.
plus.
it's all over.
between her and me.
devastating?
yes it is.

just when i thought that life couldn't get any worse.
yes it did.
my dad is bankrupt.
being sued.
and, i'll have no house to stay in.
forget about retaining.
i may have to work, to clear off the debt.
it's over 20 thousand.
devastating?
yes it is.

now, my dreams are smashed.
it's impossible for me to continue my music career.
i can't afford it.
no way i can.
over.
life long ambition.
smashed instantly.
my effort gone down the drain.
my hard work over all these years.
gone.

no love.
no dreams.
no future.

what else is left for me?
what else in life do i have?
what is there for me to feel happy about?
why am i even living?

don't worry for me.

i won't end my life, for it has already ended.
on it's own.
fate denied a chance for me to live.
fate denied happiness from me.
hahaha.

funny?
yes it is.

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10:42 PM,
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