Voices Make Music

dunno what the fuck is wrong with blogger or youtube. i can't put video in my blog. damn sickening.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ga_80F-5Efc

jeremy kwan. focus music pro singer. must see. top 16 already ah!

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really very gandong now. gandong until my eyes are almost tearing.

thanks terri =)

i really wonder how can a person be so sweet. how can a person be so nice.

just like an angel.

thanks.

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Teenage icons with yuki (hui xin's friend) at butter factory! celebrating ming's birthday. was pretty fun but it's a pity not all the icons were present.

OH YA!! CUI, this is for you!! HOT AH!! love ya!! hahahaha =)

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11:52 PM,
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i'm in soccer and cheerleading! had trainings today. soccer training at 8.30am and cheer at 3.30pm. though both were tough, but i enjoyed both. getting involved in ccas can really make me stop thinking about things that always used to bug me. kill my time and prevent me from thinking too much in my free time. guess that's pretty good for me.

when i reached school, the hockey people were already training. like wow. they mean business. saw a couple of my friends from hockey, didn't really get to talk to them though. it feels good to be in school during the holidays and see your friends. though you might not get to talk to them, but it feels good just to be able to see them.

soccer training was pretty fun but tiring, had to play under the blazing sun. and poor bear, he painted the field alone. no one was willing to help him. that reminds me, i've got to train harder, my stamina really cannot make it.

then stayed in school till 3.30 for cheerleading training. was another tough one. but i enjoyed it. killed my time. after training we went to causeway point for dinner together. for some team bonding i guess. lol.

broke the wire of my braces just now. it's hurting me. damn.

haha. i feel so aimless.

oh yea. garyl leeched wireless connection and got arrested. i never knew that leeching will get arrested. now i know. hope he won't go to jail la. don't want to see my classmate in jail too.

and cheryl, i know you probably won't see this. but it's ok. just want to say that i hope we're still friends. the distance between us is growing. and i'm sad. fear that one day we might just stop contacting each other. we used to talk a lot, but now. i don't think that will happen again. and i'm aware that you're irritated by stalkers, i don't want to be one of them. i don't want you to see me as one of them. it's all over between us already. but it seems pretty hard for me to talk to you. unless we're really by chance together at the moment, i doubt we'll get to talk. because you are annoyed by those stalkers, perhaps that's why i find it real hard to approach you. and sometimes i wonder if you even see me as one of those stalkers. i really don't want that to happen. if you're going to feel uncomfortable when you see me, then i would rather that we be strangers. i'm just afraid of losing a friend. a very nice friend.

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11:31 PM,
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at nelson's house!

bobo! sleeping ah! haha!

hoho! let's take a closer look.

closer. WOOT!

obscene! LJ covered it with a cup.

This angle. hoho! that's nel at the back.

Machiam at disneyland.

wahaha!

naughty LJ squeeze toothpaste on bobo's head.

then he go rub it. still sleeping though.

wahaha!

cool!! that's the result of falling asleep.

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11:09 PM,
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lol! my life is the ultimate prank!

dad's sickness is back. and he refuses to go for operation. how?! he's afraid that if he stop working and if he goes for operation, the burden on my family will be even greater. but i don't care so much already, just want him to be well.

cool la. now being sued by 2 banks. hoho. i'll see what they can confiscate from my house. there's like nothing left already. if they can, take my life la! can't right? go away la.

evil.

the government is evil!

booo!

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12:08 AM,
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for all that likes to sing. talent quest is back! prizes up to $6000 to be won. for more information, please refer to www.tq.com.sg

the man from the court came to my house today and gave us a letter of notification. on the 29 of november i will be officially homeless! lol. gotta find a job real soon, if not how to feed my big fat sister! haha!

people don't feel sad for me, i've been a rich kid for too long, it's time to experience a change! haha! must train my robust character! lol!

wah! so boring at home! nothing to do, project work is finally over! the time to take a break has finally arrived! hope i can find a job real soon. got any lobang must recommend me ok! thanks!!

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11:45 AM,
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went to watch project superstar recording yesteday. was rather pissed with the management in mediacorp for their inefficiency. the time stated in the ticket is 8.30pm. some of the audience arrived as early as about 7pm. but however, they were only allowed into the tv theatre at 10pm. and after settling down, recording only manage to begin at about 10.30pm. delayed by 2 hours. and i'm sure that some people are like me, who planned to take bus home. but their delay pushed back the time and then there was already no more bus services when the recording ended. so had to take cab home. and for this, i want to thank terri.

was pretty upset that kern bai didn't do as well as jeff. he scored 28.5, which is the lowest points for that episode. and it's highly possible that the 2 lowest will be eliminated. so i hope kern bai survives thru. he's a really great singer. just like jeremy, i hope they can advance thru, do focus proud!

had OP today. ah! it was crap. i screwed it all up. i hate it. i had the cue cards with me. but why. why did i miss out one slide?! i totally forgot that i've got one more conclusion to do, and i happily said "we have come to the end of our presentation, thank you for your kind attention". then when i turned, i saw the conclusion subtitle up there. ahhh! shit. i know the accessers will think that i'm not familiar with my slides. no! i did the powerpoint! i did it almost all by myself! how can i forget that part?! ahhh! they are going to deduct marks, i know they will. i feel so guilty, i've let my group down.

but for the Q&A, perhaps god was on my side, i managed to answer the question without panicking. hope that will bring my marks up.

i'm feeling so lost now. i don't know what i want. i have no aims.

i hope i can find a new motivation in life. a new motivation for me to move on. a new motivation for me to go to school.

and for now, perhaps the main thing i'm concerned of is to find a job. to survive the holidays. i don't even dare to think about spending on leisure. i just hope that i won't starve. haha. might be joinning janice to work in haagen daz.

oh yea talking about janice working. haha! silly girl! one of the customers paid via credit card, then she took the card, and then wanted to return to the customer. when she went back, she saw the tables empty, so she panicked and ran out to chase them, ran from one side to another, and then to the toilet. couldn't find them, so she came back to the shop sadly. and then her collegue said, "why did you go to table 2? it's table 6!" so she ran out for nothing, while the customers were actually sitting there waiting for her to come back all along. silly girl!!! and the way you run is very funny lah!! little kid! so funny la you! always make me laugh by doing silly things.

oh yar one more thing. when you see this,

place of birth: ________________

is it very stupid to write the hospital that you are born in?

coz shelly asked me this question today, she asked me what will i write for place of birth, so i said thomson medical centre. then she laughed! and jan was damn happy coz my frequency same as hers. she wrote mt. elizabeth. wahaha! first time she's happy that our frequency is the same. that's what i've always been trying to tell you jan! you always refuse to believe that we are both silly people. and now you're happy that you're not alone. big time silly girl! anyway, if they want to ask for nationality then just write nationality lah!!! write what place of birth!!!

ok i shall end this entry abruptly.

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6:33 PM,
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i'm not in tinybox anymore. now changed to focus music. due to some family problems within tinybox between fang lao shi and ken wu, the company splitted. then fei hui lao shi decided to set up his own school. which is focus music. so we his students, decided to follow him. anyway, he got hold of our contracts.

last saturday went there for my first lesson in focus music. it's located at outram park, pretty near to music clinic and ocean butterfly. lao shi said that's the central area of the music industry, so he set up his school there too.

the school is really bigger and nicer than tinybox. it's very nice. i like the flat screens especially. and then the studio is not completed yet. so looking forward to singing in that studio.

hope i can stay in focus music. i love music.

today went to school early in the morning with my parents, initially wanted to appeal for a promotion from the principal. then after that my parents decided to talk to my CT mr foo first before appealing. get his opinions first, or best if can get his support. then mr foo was busy with PW presentation, so didn't manage to see him. so my parents went home, will reschedule an appointment with him.

hope i can promote.

then passed the hamsters to janice for her group's PW presentation. they're doing on animal assisted therapy. that's why they asked me to bring hamsters for their presentation. so i waited for janice to arrive, then while waiting, cheryl came first. for her group's OP rehearsal. so i talked to her, and of course james, xinyu, huifang and other people from their class were there too. stayed with them at the library and helped them with timing of their OP. i really feel happy that i'm doing something for her.

it's been really long since i've last talked to cheryl, felt really happy talking to her. perhaps God knows that i'm feeling down, and let me have an opportunity to talk to her, to make me feel better. yes, i do feel better. thank God. it feels good to see her still doing well. and i feel so consoled that she's fine. seeing her smile is just something heart warming. and she was still concerned about my current situation, felt really consoled. hope her group IJ100 can do well for OP tomorrow.

their project is on blogging. i do agree with them that blogging actually can help oneself express his own feelings. that's what i've been doing. blogging out my feelings, my life. and people really do come and tag. nice people. concerned about our lifes. though sometimes there are criticism too, but we all learn to accept criticisms. this can perhaps make me a stronger person. i feel less lonely, with a blog. and i'm rather shocked to see that my blog's viewership actually shot up to 9000 already, within such a short time. wow. i'm just surprised, coz my blog's plain and boring.

after that, headed off to mediacorp to root for jeremy. a fellow singer from focus music. was pretty disappointed that he scored the lowest points. but he's a really singer. even if he gets eliminated, i will admire him a lot. hope tomorrow jeff and kern bai will be able to do well.

focus music all the way!

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12:53 AM,
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i love this world.

i'm back.

standing strong.

thanks people.

thanks jan, for being there for me. i know i can always count on you. and i'm sorry for what i've done to you. sorry for all the misunderstandings. we shouldn't have doubted each other.

thanks cheryl, for your words of encouragement.
he, who loses money, loses much;
he, who loses a friend, loses much more;
he, who loses faith, loses all.

i still have so many good friends. angels they are. i haven't lost much actually.
most importantly, i must not lose faith. thanks for bringing that back to me.

thanks nelson. for always being there as a great friend. though sometimes i know that you feel helpless, you don't know how to help me. you wished you could. and i know that. thanks.

thanks yuan rui. for your words of encouragement. i appreciate that. really thank god for knowing you.

thanks agnes. silly girl indeed. though concerned, but afraid to tell me that. and got mitch to do it for you. haha. thanks.

thanks mitch. for your encouragement. never expected you'll be so sweet too yea? haha.

thanks nik. for your sms. for your tags. most importantly, for you being such a nice friend.

thanks puiman. 11 years of friends. haha. you didn't let me down. you were there for me, like always.

thanks shiying. for your unexpected email. though we're not close friends, but a sweet email from you really brighten up my day.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.

thanks for that. wish you all the best too. we will strive together yea?

thanks terri. for being there all the time. for staying up till late night just to be with me. thanks. you've been a really sweet friend.

thanks kamielah. you've been a really really nice classmate. i feel really fortunate to know you, and to be your classmate. a pity that we can't be classmates anymore. but i will always remember and cherish those memories.

thanks ain. i finally understand what you've been through. thanks for the pat on the back.

thanks izzati. though i always like to tease you, and you like to tease me too. but you're really sweet. glad to have you as my group mate. i'm gonna miss you too.

thanks penny.

thanks allena.

thanks joyce.

thanks sharon.

thanks elaine.

thanks yanni.

thanks ghostofthepast. though your identity is a secret, but i believe that you're an angel.

i'm afraid that i might miss anybody out. if i do, i'm really sorry. sincerely thank everyone that has been there for me.

i really do.

there's simply too many people to thank. and i thank God for that.

thanks to all. great friends are hard to come by. and i have so many of them. fate isn't that bad to me after all.

thanks mom and dad. it's been hard on you. and i've disappointed you. i'll stand strong. i'll wake up. i'll not lose faith. thanks.

thanks for being there for me. everyone. i love you.

can you feel the love tonight?

yes i can.

=)

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2:54 AM,
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never felt this much fear before.
haha.
i thought i was dying.
black out.
i was just starving.
never knew how it feels like to starve.
haha.
now i know.
never knew the joy of having food.
haha.
now i know.
seoul gardens.
eat till full.
haha.
still complained about eating too much.
now i have nothing to eat.
cool.

thanks janice.
i know i can count on you.
love you so much.

thanks agnes mitch nik and those who cares for me.
thanks.
especially her.
thanks.

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10:16 PM,
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just when i thought things couldn't get any worse.
it did.
i'm really thankful to all the people that have been supportive of me.
this is perhaps the biggest setback in my life.
devastating blows coming towards me, one after another, and it gets harder each time.
i'm suffocating.

i thought that not being able to win the heart of a girl that i really love is perhaps the worst thing that can happen to me.
indeed, i was devastated.
i was true to her, i gave my all to her.
but it's him that she loves.
i can't blame anybody but to accept fate.
accept what fate has planned for me.
hell it is.
fate is really playing with me.
fate is saddist.
i had to give up.
give up on her.
perhaps releasing her would bring her happiness.
i hope it did.
besides, i don't deserve her.
i don't deserve a girl like her.
a good girl that is.
devastating.

and then.
i got retained.
after studying really hard.
this is the first time that i've really put in so much effort and hard work.
and i still can't make the mark.
i have no one to blame.
other than my stupidity perhaps.
my whole class managed to promote.
except me.
me alone.
plus.
it's all over.
between her and me.
devastating?
yes it is.

just when i thought that life couldn't get any worse.
yes it did.
my dad is bankrupt.
being sued.
and, i'll have no house to stay in.
forget about retaining.
i may have to work, to clear off the debt.
it's over 20 thousand.
devastating?
yes it is.

now, my dreams are smashed.
it's impossible for me to continue my music career.
i can't afford it.
no way i can.
over.
life long ambition.
smashed instantly.
my effort gone down the drain.
my hard work over all these years.
gone.

no love.
no dreams.
no future.

what else is left for me?
what else in life do i have?
what is there for me to feel happy about?
why am i even living?

don't worry for me.

i won't end my life, for it has already ended.
on it's own.
fate denied a chance for me to live.
fate denied happiness from me.
hahaha.

funny?
yes it is.

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10:42 PM,
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failed.
geography.

failed.
math.

failed.
chinese lit.

failed.
her.

retained.
i'm going to start all over again.
start life all over again.

life has been terrible.
fate has been going against me.
against everything that i do.

yearning for that moment.
that moment of joy.
the joy that will spark up my life.

wondering when will it arrive.
or will it ever arrive?

='(

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12:04 AM,
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this friday is chinese A levels already. ahh! time passes really fast. oral presentation for project work is coming too! but miss lee said my class is rather good at OP, it's really a boost to our confidence. just hope that on that day, everyone will relax and perform to their best capabilities. good luck to 0642B! especially kamielah and cirie, good speakers leh! must perform well!

had touch rugby again after like a real long break. played 7 on 7! cirie, sak, agnes, mitch, nelson, lj, jj, kk, enrico, shiying, alisa, yanni, sandran and me! fun fun fun. haha and i played in school uniform! don't care la. managed to score 2 tries after changing to sandran's boots! haha. proud proud.

tomorrow is ming's birthday. the winner of teenage icon 2006. she invited all the teenage icons to her birthday. she's turning 14 only, but her birthday party is at some club. wahhh. never went clubbing in my life before, think this will be my first time. haha. cool eh. need to get a present for her later. i can't wait to see all the icons! i'll see agnes! that silly girl. charlene, hanafie, afiq and the rest.

yea and i'm gonna get retained. mdm gowri is trying to help me so that i can promote. i'm really thankful to her. even if i cannot promote, it's alright. it's good to know that there's a teacher that's so caring. i won't be able to be ogl already i guess. haha. sad, but i don't mind being the participants! i know i am going to have fun.

hopefully next year, everything will start afresh. a whole new year, a whole new hope. but for now, i'm just looking forward to the holidays!

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Name: RenJie
DOB: 27 Feb 1989
School: PXPS, CHS, MI, IJC, Focus
Location: Yishun
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